Never be Best Friend

Yea..I get some hurt today..I really prefer to write something interested and excited to fill up my whole blog,but sometimes, something that happened accidentally, we can't control it well, or even accept it, yea that will be a type of sad, disappointing.

A lots of time, even we know that's impossible  we still will keep hard to do, although just pray for it, although just keep it on mind, we still will feel happy, satisfied and faithfully.

But..why do you said so today? Never will be the best friend with me? Isn't I really become the worthless people to you? Even become a friend or further? I really such a bad guy to you? Aren't you already become so disappointed to me? What I had done for you? I make you feel uncomfortable?

I thought I really control myself safely, told everything that I encountered, cover my sadness with a joke, let you know my feeling very well, try my best to take care on you, still uphold to the matter that I don't need to do, responsible as a friend, and I hope you will be further, I cherish you, hold with my truly heart, keep with my promises..
But you said something, my heart felt pain, fully hurt-ed and I don't know want to keep it or not. I have no chances to lose it anymore, again and again, I scare I can't accept it well, maybe crumble, maybe become not sensitive to anything, I really can't accept anyone left me down again, neither once or more..

Actually something that you intimate I can understand and accept it very well. But isn't all of it correct? Hate someone without any reasons or even because of her sound? Yea really sometimes we will. Ask someone to come here go there because of your convenient  Yea that's really show to others about what you want. Angry about someone that disagree with you? Yea that's such unconvinced.
Both of us are hypocritical, as what my friend said, yea you will reject this I know, we smile on the ways that we don't want to, we make others think that we are not so sensitive, maybe we had hide it, maybe we scare to be hated, maybe we too careless till forget what we want and what we don't want..

If you wanna to be, I will accept..
I won't ask you head back, but at least think carefully before speak out..
If you wan withdraw that, tell me, I very welcome to face it..
I will happier, but I will keep it on mind, as reminder, as recall..